CBA

A melancholy day. Started "doing the work" for recovery. Writing out thoughts, behaviors, and likes that I was experiencing during the alcoholic phase of my life. Life judgments, the minuses and pluses, that my addiction allowed me to formulate then commit. The name of this exercise is a Cost/Benefit Analysis (CBA). You develop list under each of the four following topics:
1. What do I enjoy about my addiction?
2. What do I hate about my addiction?
3. What do I think I will like about giving up my addiction?
4. What do I think I won't like about giving up my addiction?
I am going to be adding to these list along the way because I am sure more experiences will occur to me as I move further with my recovery. Moving on...
I was able to force my self to go to the gym and workout in an effort to reduce the darkness of this day. Turned down an offer to play golf in a local tournament. I know this contest, way to much alcohol will be present, I do not need the temptation. Play golf, then drink, I did it a lot.
Time to walk the dog (not a euphemism for anything, really, I am going to walk a dog).

12 days, 1 weekend sober.