Thousand Times

I can quit, I have done it a thousand times.
I have gone without drinking. The duration of these dry spells was from a week to a year. I believed these non-drinking periods where a check on my habit, a way to say I was in control. If I could go "X" amount of days then all was good, I did not have a problem. But a funny thing happened on the way to the coliseum.
1. These checks had a reward at the end, I could drink again. How positive is this when the underlying motivation is drinking again.
2. The idea of having these checks should, in-of-its-self, of been a red flag. You have a problem if your constantly having to put your drinking in check.
Ah, this is one way (of many) I found to put a curtain in front of and to hide the truth from myself. I went from someone who occasionally had only a couple to a problem drinker to an alcoholic. All the time checking my self along the way.

11 days, 1 weekend sober